Resetting Lady

Chapter 83: Story of love

Its quite nice coming out during the day like this, and its all thanks to you, Sir Raymond. I thought this iteration of mine would be spent just working until I die.

Im happy to have helped. It is a mans honor to alleviate a ladys hardships.

What an exemplary answer.

He had promised to be honest. When Carynne chastised Raymonds mechanical answer, he stopped writing and raised his head to look at Carynne. So, Raymond spoke again to her with a slightly dissatisfied expression.

To be honest, Im not really happy. I believe that people dont anymore do useless things when theyre busy. Thats why youll be able to have a healthier lifestyle as long as you know the joys of diligent work and the preciousness of everyday life.

Raymonds nagging went on and on. Carynne said that shed give Raymond Baron Eins money if he wanted it, but he promised not to touch it. Thats why he shouldnt care how exactly shed be spending it, but it seemed like he still expressed his dislike whenever shed spend it wrongly.

Carynne waved her hand to stop the prolonged nagging.

Stop it. Youre worse than Dullan. Are you telling me off for being extravagant? I did offer to give you the money if you wanted it.

I would have understood if you spent luxuriously on dresses and jewelry, but really. The things youve purchased, um. Honestly, I cant understand at all.

Raymond had organized the list of the things that Carynne bought. She could tell that he was sighing at the sheer length of the seemingly endless list.

Pointing one finger at him, Carynne stated the obvious.

Youre looking down on the history of those items. Theyre antiques, you know.

Im still not sure about these things. Theyre worth nothing, while antiques are worth at least something. You wont be able to resell any of this.

Its apparent that Carynne had developed a vice in buying anything and everything that had a connection with her predecessors. No matter what the price was, she didnt hesitate to buy them.

Naturally, money flowed out like a faulty leak in the pipes. Raymond was criticizing that in particular.

Did you perhaps acquire some traits from Mister Verdic? Ah, I dont mean to reproach you. Like I said before, arent my circumstances quite special? Thats why Im buying everything that has any relevance.

I see. The attorney will be coming to the mansion later this afternoon, and they said theyd like to pay half first and the rest in installments. Baron Eins mansion has been auctioned off. Hes now completely bankrupt. Im just hoping he wont hang his neck on a noose after this.

The schedule was tight. Carynne counted on her fingers as she deliberated the remaining days. Shes thinking that perhaps shed die first before being able to spend all of Baron Eins money.

Tell him he can take his time in paying. Itll take me more than a year to spend it all, but I wont have the luxury of time until then.

That would be a great comfort to him. Though he might nevertheless hold a grudge.

Raymonds countenance was not very bright. Carynne glanced down to observe his face. This was also the first time that Carynne had won this much money. She earned proportionally as much as Raymonds investment.

Oh my, but I did that under your order, Sir Raymond. Do you regret it?

No, its just I didnt expect you to win that much.

Carynne had stayed up for two nights, wondering about how she should make Raymond fall for her. He was treating her coldly, with sharp eyes and a sharp tongue. The only thing she achieved with winning a large sum of money through gambling was heightened caution on his part, hardly making him fall in love with her.

I guess, rather than acting like a psychopath, I should have gone down the path of being more pitiful.

Sitting at the top of the ladder, Carynne let out a sigh. After earning that much money from gambling, she decided to use it on trying to trace her predecessors.

If my mother was like me, what about my grandmother, and my great-grandmother as well?

It wasnt easy to trust what Dullan had said with the situation here while she was with Raymond. And she didnt know how to make Raymond fall in love with her.

If she knew that its all going to come to this point, she would have been nice from the beginning.

Then again, if she didnt murder those people, she wouldnt have come to know the answer she knew now.

That look in his eyes, I dont like it.

She wanted to nab those eyeballs from their sockets. This was her thought as she stared back at the grimacing Raymonds eyes.

Raymond had always given her gentle smiles. It was quite uncomfortable and awkward that he was looking at her with suspicion now.

Raymonds greatest merit was his unchanging consistency. Though it was a new feeling, all she felt now was how inconvenient his attitude towards her was, rather than feeling refreshed.

I just want to kill myself already and start the next life.

But the problem was that suicide was impossible at this time. Its only in the last chapter of the novel that shed be allowed to die. Before that time, she had to live somehow. Then, theres also the problem of how shed be able to get more answers from Dullan. A problem here, a problem there.

From up on the ladder, Carynne looked down at the crown of Raymonds head, then she let out a deep sigh.

You decided to believe, right?

Yes.

Raymond and Carynne left Verdics mansion and were now staying at Countess Elvas residence. And though they were under her roof, they were independent to some extent because they were staying at the mansions annex.

The countess smiled wryly while saying, A young couple should live separately of course, however until this point of time, any contact between them was a far cry from anything sexual.

In any case, please say that you love me in front of Dullan later. I guess there are still some unresolved feelings.

Yes.

You promised to believe.

Yes.

Please fix your expression.

I understand.

Raymond answered as his grip on the pen tightened. His facial muscles twitched. Even though he decided to believe, he somehow still wanted to express his own opinion that Carynnes words were quite absurd.

So then Mm Right You repeat the same life, and love Um Love might solve it, yes. But then, throughout all that time, its possible that I had treated you insincerely. Thats why Um I will have to love you and confess in front of Reverend Dullan.

Raymond forced himself to say all that. Again, his expression was twitching.

You know, I think hell cry once he hears your confession.

I will try.

Whatever kind of expression he had on his face, she was making the best out of this. Even with the smallest of things. She slept as much as she wanted, and in her spare time, she researched what she could. And there was also someone here who could help her. Raymondhes the one helping her. Though she couldnt be sure of his thoughts.

Raymonds eyes were different from how they used to be. For now, she had to doubt whether he truly did love her in the past. But even so, its certain that his gaze, as he looked at her, definitely used to be softer. And back then, he couldnt take his eyes off her. Perhaps it could be said that they were the eyes of an adorable puppy.

Inside a novel You repeat your life, and Yes I believe it.

Staring at Raymonds countenance, Carynne sighed. She was sure that he was like that in the past. Moderately buoyant, moderately comforting. Thinking about it all, Carynne was met with the urge to throw a book right into his face.

Please endure it.

Endure what?

The book just now. You were going to throw it at my face.

So you know. Here.

As Raymond was under the ladder, Carynne tossed the heavy book at him, and his hand caught it readily. The old smell of the parchment reached his nose, and its unfamiliarity made him frown.

The title of the book was written in a foreign language, but it didnt look like an unfamiliar script. While staring at the title, Raymond commented.

Its a history book.

Rather than history, its more like just a record of idle chitchat here and there.

Carynne answered Raymond as she looked over the vast mountain of books.

The fifth floor of the grand royal library. Carynne had never come this far before. When she went to the grand library before, she did read some books, but the fifth floor could be entered only with special permission. She didnt expect Raymond to be this helpful. Hes like a ticket in.

Carynne held tight on the ladder and looked down at Raymonds head. That head looked good as a target. His hair was shiny, and his head was round.

Then why dont you start with collating information first?

Raymond was the one who suggested that they come to a library. It was a different reaction from what she had experienced before.

In the past when Carynne had confessed to Raymondwho was her lover at that pointthat she had been living the same life repeatedly, he had comforted her dearly as she trembled in anxiety.

However, the Raymond of the present, who was bound by duty and contract, just tilted his head to the side and gave her a different answer.

I think it would be better to go to a library first.

A library? Well, Ive been to libraries a few times before.

Lets look into more information there. As you said, it would be better to focus on investigating your predecessors. If we cant find anything, then itll at least be entertaining.

However, there was one thing that Carynne and Raymond hadnt thought of.

Women dont leave many records.

At least, Im glad they hadnt been commoners.

And so, Raymond and Carynne spent an entire week at the library with nothing much to show for. Records usually followed patriarchs, not matriarchs. Of all things, why did she have to be born as a woman? Carynne wanted to cry.