Marriage First, True Love Later Novel

Chapter 90: I will never love you again

Translator: 549690339

Power was such a wonderful thing. After su Yicheng called the director of the city Hospital, Lin Li was arranged to stay in a single Ward with a better environment. In addition, the doctors and nurses also followed up on Lin Li’s condition and repeatedly assured her that Lin Li only needed to rest and her body would be fully recovered.

Anran had originally wanted to stay behind to accompany Lin Li, but under the insistence of her parents, she finally went home with su Yicheng.

Anran was particularly quiet on the way. She leaned back in her chair quietly and turned her head to look outside.

Su Yicheng turned to look at her, knowing that she must be too weak to say anything now. So, he didn’t say anything. He just freed one hand, took her hand, and held it gently.

Her hand was held. Anran slowly turned her head and saw him smiling at her.

Looking at him, an ran was a little touched again. Her nose felt sour, and tears welled up in her eyes. She turned her head away and tried her best to open her eyes and look at the roof of the car, not letting her tears fall.

Su Yicheng didn’t force her and just gently held her hand. He looked at the road ahead and drove seriously without saying a word.

After returning to the apartment, Anran only said that she was a little tired. She took her pajamas and went directly to the bathroom.

Su Yicheng stared at the bathroom door that had been closed again for a long time before he turned around and walked out. He removed the tie around his neck, placed it on the sofa, unbuttoned his sleeves, rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, and walked into the kitchen.

Anran dried her hair with a dry towel and came out. She lifted the thin blanket on the bed weakly and went to bed. Before her hair was completely dry, she covered herself with the thin blanket and prepared to go to sleep.

Su Yicheng came in with the noodles and saw an ran covering herself with the blanket, her body half-curled up. He walked forward and placed the noodles on the bedside table. He reached out and patted an ran gently, calling out softly, ” “An ran ... An ran?”

Anran didn’t turn around. She only said in a muffled voice, ” “I’m so tired, I want to sleep.”

Su Yicheng lifted the blanket and picked her up, only to see the tears on her face.

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Anran turned her head away from him and said, ” “I’m really tired. I want to sleep.”

He turned her body over, reached out, and lifted her face to make her look at him. Su Yicheng looked straight into her eyes, as if he could see through her entire being.

Anran didn’t look at him. She lowered her eyes and looked at the blanket. However, her tears seemed to be completely out of control, and they slid down her cheeks.

Su Yicheng sighed softly and reached out to wipe the tears on her cheeks with his fingertips. Then, he held her face up with both hands and forced her to look into his eyes, saying, ” &Quot; Anran, people always have to go through things to grow. The process may be painful and hurtful, but that’s the price of growing up. It’s something that must be paid to make people stronger. It was very painful, but it was precisely because of this pain that it made people remember the lesson. Sometimes, it’s not a bad thing when you look at it from another perspective.”

Anran stared at him for a long time before she murmured, ” I know. &Quot; But why did it hurt so much? ten years of love was gone, and she didn’t even have a child. She didn’t know if Lin Li would be able to face all of this when she woke up tomorrow.

Su Yicheng touched her head and said, ” “You didn’t eat much just now. Here, I cooked some noodles. Have some.” As he spoke, he brought the bowl of noodles from the bedside table over to her.

Anran looked at the noodles and shook her head. &Quot; I’m not hungry. &Quot; She didn’t have an appetite either. Now, she was only worried that Lin Li wouldn’t be able to take it when she woke up and found out that her child was gone.

“Be good and eat some. I cooked it myself. I haven’t even taken a shower.” Su Yicheng said in a spoiled manner.

Anran looked at him and then at the noodles in his hand. She shook her head and said, ” “There’s too much, I can’t finish it.”

“Eat as much as you can. I’ll take care of the rest.”

Hearing him say this, Anran couldn’t refuse him anymore. She nodded, took the noodles from his hand, and picked up the chopsticks. Even though she really didn’t have an appetite, Anran still tried very hard to eat it in small bites. In fact, the noodles he made tasted very good, but she was just in a bad mood.

In the end, under su Yicheng’s gaze, Anran tried very hard to finish half the bowl. In the end, because her mood had affected her appetite, she shook her head apologetically to su Yicheng, indicating that she really couldn’t eat anymore.

Shu Yicheng touched her head in understanding and took the bowl and chopsticks from her hands. He immediately took a big bite and finished the rest of the noodles in a few moments.

She put the bowl and chopsticks into the sink in the kitchen, went back to her room to get a change of pajamas, and went straight into the bathroom to take a shower.

When su Yicheng came out again, Anran was still lying on the left side of the bed in a daze, holding a small photo book in her hand. Inside were photos of her and Lin Li. Some were taken when they were in school, and some were taken when they went on a trip together after they entered society. In every photo, Lin Li was smiling very happily and happily. Almost every photo had a smiling face, the kind of good mood that made people a little jealous.

Su Yicheng went to the other side of the bed and took the photo album from her hand. Then, he pulled the dumbfounded woman into his arms and gently shook her.

&Quot; in the past, Lin Li was smiling every day. I almost couldn’t find a single picture of her being unhappy. &Quot; Anran said in a low voice in su Yicheng’s arms.

Su Yicheng gently patted her back and said, ” “She’s a strong person, she’ll get better.”

An ran shook her head. &Quot; she’s weak. She’s not strong. &Quot;

Su Yicheng let go of her, looked at her, and said with a faint smile, ” &Quot; it’s okay. You stay by her side. Father Lin and mother Lin will stay by her side too. She will help you get better as soon as possible. &Quot;

Anran looked at him for a long time before she nodded slightly.

Su Yicheng pulled her into his arms again, lowered his head, and kissed the center of her hair. &Quot; &Quot; alright, let’s go to sleep. We’ll go see Lin Li tomorrow. &Quot;

Anran nodded and didn’t say anything. She allowed him to lay down with her in his arms. Then, she found a comfortable position in his arms, closed her eyes, and let him sleep.

When she woke up the next day, she was a little surprised that her body was still in that warm embrace that made her feel nostalgic. Surprisingly, su Yicheng didn’t get up early for his morning exercise today, but accompanied her all the way until dawn.

She opened her eyes and looked into his good-looking eyes. Anran was stunned for a while before she asked, ” “Why didn’t you go for your morning exercise?”

Su Yicheng lowered his head and pecked her on the lips. With a faint smile, he said, ” you look so beautiful when you’re sleeping. I’ve been looking at you for a while now, and I’ve forgotten. &Quot;

An ran laughed and scolded, ” nonsense. &Quot; She naturally knew that he was here to coax her. She knew that he was being considerate because he knew that she was in a bad mood, so he spent more time with her. Her heart still felt warm because of his gentleness and closeness. She felt that she was very lucky to be cherished like this.

Su Yicheng kissed her on the lips and gave her a passionate morning kiss.

Anran pushed him away awkwardly and looked at him. She covered her mouth and said, ” “I didn’t brush my teeth.” After sleeping for a night, he was definitely still breathing.

Su Yicheng smiled, reached out, pulled her hand down, and covered her lips again. After a long time, he let go of her, pressed his head against her head, and rubbed the tip of her nose against hers. With a faint smile on his lips, he said, ” “I don’t mind,”

Anran pouted and looked at him for a while before she mumbled, ” “It’s unhygienic,”

“Hahaha.” Su Yicheng laughed out loud, lowered his head, and kissed her for a long time before he let go of her and said, ” &Quot; get up. Go wash your face and brush your teeth first. Then, give director Huang a call. I’ll take you to the hospital after breakfast. &Quot;

Hearing this, Anran nodded obediently. She took out the clothes she was going to change into today from the closet and went straight into the bathroom.

While she was washing up, su Yicheng went to the kitchen and made two sandwiches for their breakfast.

Anran called Huang Dexing to tell him that she would be taking a day off. Huang Dexing didn’t say much, but responsibly reminded her that the ” Mobile Manor ” case was urgent. In the end, she had to hand over the design drafts before next Monday so that he could arrange for the gang Ren to make the model boards and the sample room.

Anran knew that the entire case had been dragged on for quite some time, and she also knew that everything he said was correct. It was true that if she didn’t finish the design as soon as possible, the sample House and the model would take time, and it wasn’t something that could be done immediately.

Su Yicheng drove her to the hospital. When they reached the ground floor of the hospital, he was just about to get out of the car to accompany Anran when Secretary Zheng’s phone rang at this time, reminding him that he had a meeting that morning and that he had to attend.

&Quot; you don’t have to go up with me, ” Anran said to him considerately. &Quot; you can go back to your work. &Quot;

Su Yicheng looked at the time. He really didn’t have much time to accompany her upstairs, so he could only nod, look at her, and say, ” “Then I’ll take my leave first. Be careful.”

Anran nodded and smiled at him.

When Anran went to Lin Li’s ward again, Lin Li was already awake. Outside the door, it seemed like Chengxiang hadn’t returned last night. He was still wearing the groom’s clothes from yesterday, and the pants of his suit were still stained with the blood that Lin Li had shed when she fell.

Anran pushed the door open and went in. She saw that father Lin and mother Lin were uncomfortably silent, while Lin Li’s eyes were open. Her gaze was not focused, and she was staring at the ceiling. She was completely silent and didn’t say a word. It was a little uncomfortable to look at.

“Lin Li.” An ran stepped forward and gently called her name. However, she didn’t react at all. Her eyes were staring straight at the ceiling, not even blinking.

Mother Lin’s heart ached when she saw her daughter like this. She said, ” “I woke up at 11 O ‘clock last night. When I woke up, I reached out and touched my stomach, asking if the child was still there.” As she said that, tears fell uncontrollably from her eyes. Beside her, father Lin couldn’t help but laugh. He turned his head away and didn’t look at her.

Mother Lin continued,”when she found out that the child was gone, she just stared at me for a long time before she smiled weakly and went back to sleep.” When we woke up this morning, we saw her staring at the ceiling. She didn’t respond when we called her. ”

Anran reached out and touched Lin Li’s head, her heart aching.

Knock, knock, knock ... Someone knocked on the door of the ward.

Thinking that the nurse was here to take his temperature, father Lin turned around and opened the door. The door was opened, and it wasn’t a nurse who was standing outside, but Chengxiang’s parents.

Cheng Zheng’s mother was holding a thermos bottle in her hand, while Cheng Zheng’s father was holding a bag in his other hand, which contained some of Lin Li’s clothes to change into.

“In-law daddy, is Xiao Li awake?” Cheng Zheng’s mother came in with a thermos bottle containing chicken soup that she had been cooking all night. It was especially good for people who had miscarried. Not to mention anything else, the most important thing for Lin Li now was to recuperate.

Father Lin looked at them, his expression a little grim. Thinking that Lin Li’s current state was all because of Chengxiang, the unhappiness and resentment in his heart surged up. Looking at them, he said in a cold and hard tone, ” &Quot; you guys can leave now. Xiaoli doesn’t want to see anyone from the Cheng family. &Quot;

&Quot; in-law dad, we know that this is all Chengxiang’s fault, but now is not the time to blame him. Taking care of Xiaoli’s health is the most important thing. &Quot; Cheng Zheng’s mother said tactfully as she came in with a thermos bottle filled with rice and chicken soup. &Quot; this is the chicken soup I made last night. It’s especially good for the body. &Quot;

&Quot; get out. Our Xiaoli doesn’t need to drink your chicken soup. We love our own child. We don’t need you to put on an act. &Quot; Mother Lin was a little agitated and was about to push them out.

“In-law mom, please don’t be like this. We know that this is all Chengxiang’s fault, but it has already happened. The most important thing is for all of us to take care of Xiaoli’s health.” Mrs. Cheng explained.

&Quot; no need. You guys go out. We all want to see you. &Quot; Mother Lin insisted on pushing them out.

Just as they were quarreling, Lin Li slowly turned her head and looked at them with her slightly empty eyes. After a long while, she said, ” I want to see Chengxiang. &Quot; The voice was so dry and hoarse that it made one’s heart ache.

Hearing this, everyone quieted down and looked at her in a daze. They were surprised that she was still willing to see Chengxiang at this time.

“Lin Li?” An ran looked at her worriedly and held her hand tightly.

Lin Li turned her eyes and stared at Anran. After a while, she said again, ” “I want to see Chengxiang.”

Anran looked at her and said, ” &Quot; he didn’t come. Lin Li, let’s look for him after we’re discharged. &Quot; An ran didn’t dare to let her see Chengxiang, afraid that she would get too emotional.

Lin Li shook her head and only said indifferently, ” “Help me call him in, I know he’s outside.”

Anran turned her head and glanced at father Lin and mother Lin. She looked at them with a questioning look.

Mother Lin quickly went forward and said in a negotiating tone by Lin Li’s bedside, ” “Xiao Li, I don’t see Chengxiang outside. Take care of your body first, okay?”

Lin Li faintly smiled and said, ” &Quot; mom, I’m fine. Let him in. I have some things to ask him. &Quot; After being silly for so long, it was time for her to wake up.

Mother Lin looked at her hesitantly for a while, then finally nodded and asked Anran to call Chengxiang in.

When Cheng Xiang heard that Lin Li wanted to enter his room, he stumbled in. His hair was in a mess, and his clothes were also very wrinkled. In addition to his newly grown beard and his somewhat Haggard eyes, he looked very miserable.

“Lin Li.” Chengxiang went up and looked at Lin Li. He was a little emotional, and his eyes were red. He reached out to touch her face, but Lin Li turned her face away. Looking at her, Chengxiang painfully said, ” “I’m sorry,” she said.

Upon hearing this, Lin Li’s mouth had a faint smile, but her eyes revealed sadness. She had loved this man for 10 years, loving him with all her heart. She didn’t mind becoming the shadow in his heart, and she didn’t mind that he would always leave a place for another woman in his heart. This was because she always believed that his 10 years of love, he more or less loved her. Even if it was just a little bit, as long as it was this little bit, she felt that her 10 years of love for him were not in vain, and it was not worth it. But ...

“Chengxiang.” Turning her head to look at him, Lin Li opened her mouth and said in a hoarse and dry voice, ” &Quot; have you ever loved me in the past 10 years? ”

Chengxiang couldn’t help but nod. &Quot; yes! &Quot; Perhaps he wasn’t sure before, or perhaps Xiaoxiao’s shadow had always been hidden in his heart, but it was the last time, just yesterday, when he saw her lying in his arms with her eyes closed and her face pale, he knew how afraid he was to lose her. Only then did he realize that he had fallen in love with her a long time ago. He had fallen in love with the woman who always liked to smile and the woman who always said that she loved him without hiding it. He fell in love with the woman who always hugged his neck and smiled at him, asking for a kiss. He didn’t know when he fell in love with her, but when he found out, it was already deep love.

Lin Li laughed and shook her head. &Quot; you don’t love me, ” she said. &Quot; don’t lie to yourself. &Quot;

“No, I love you, really!” Chengxiang was in a hurry to explain, but was interrupted by Lin Li.

“If you love me, why would you run away from my wedding? If you love me, why would you hug another woman?” Lin Li spoke very calmly, but tears fell from her eyes without her knowing.

&Quot; I ... &Quot; Chengxiang wanted to explain, but he found that he was simply unable to explain himself.

&Quot; I’ve loved you for 10 years. I know that there’s always been a shadow in your heart. You love me very deeply. I know that you often stare at my hair and think of the person in your heart. I don’t mind, I really don’t mind. I don’t mind that I’m just someone else’s substitute, and I don’t mind that you can’t love me as much as I love you. &Quot; As Lin Li spoke, her eyes looked straight at him. She stretched out her hand and slowly raised it towards him, gently touching the man she had always loved since she knew how to love. The tears at the corner of her eyes couldn’t help but slide down as she continued, ” &Quot; I thought that as time passed, the shadow in your heart would fade and you would slowly fall in love with me, even if it was just a little. I’m really not greedy. As Long As You Love Me just a little, I can be firm in my decision. &Quot;

“I do love you, not just a little.” Chengxiang grabbed her hand and pressed it tightly against his face.

An ran turned her face away, feeling a little uncomfortable. She covered her mouth with her hand, trying hard not to cry out loud.

Lin Li shook her head lightly and smiled faintly. &Quot; I was too stupid in the past. I always felt that it was only a matter of time. As long as I was patient enough, as long as I was willing to wait, he would turn around one day and see me. But I forgot that you were as persistent as I was. You and I were the same person. While I was waiting for you silently, you were also silently loving another person in your heart. Even if you knew that it was impossible for that person to be with you, you would still silently leave a place for her in your heart. &Quot;

Chengxiang grabbed her hand tightly and brought it to his lips to kiss it. He shook his head, but couldn’t say a word.

After a moment of silence, Lin Li retracted her hand and looked at him. She seemed to have made a decision in her heart and said, ” &Quot; I thought about it for the whole night and finally thought it through. It’s time for me to let go. I shouldn’t hold on to a man who will never fall in love with me for the rest of my life. I can’t make you fall in love with me even after 10 years. I can’t completely get rid of the shadow in your heart even after 10 years. No matter how long it takes, it’ll all be in vain. &Quot;

&Quot; I won’t, Lin Li. I love you. I really love you. Believe me. Believe me, okay? ” Chengxiang grabbed her hand, tears falling from his eyes.

&Quot; it’s too late. &Quot; Lin Li retracted her hand and shook her head. She raised her hand and took off the diamond ring that he had put on for her yesterday on her left ring finger. She placed it in his hand and turned her head to look straight at the ceiling.”It’s too late, I’m tired, I can’t move anymore.”

“Then let’s change it to me loving you. This time, it’s my turn to love you, okay?” Chengxiang placed the diamond ring in her palm, his large palm tightly wrapping around her small hand.

Lin Li turned her head to look at him and shook her head. Her hand slowly covered her lower abdomen. It was still flat, but there was once a small life there. She could even clearly hear his strong heartbeat, but it was gone now. Thinking about it, she couldn’t control her tears and they fell from her eyes. &Quot; it’s too late, Chengxiang. The child is gone. We don’t even have a reason to be together again. It’s all too late. It’s all too late. &Quot; I won’t love you again. My love for you for the past ten years has been exhausted, and it’s impossible to have it again.” As she spoke, her tears flowed even more fiercely, wetting the side of her pillow.

“It won’t be too late. As long as you’re willing, it will never be too late. If the child is gone, we can have more, as many as we want, okay?” Grabbing her hand, Chengxiang anxiously said, ” &Quot; Lin Li, let’s start over. This time, I only have you in my heart. Let’s start over, okay? ”

Lin Li pulled her hand back without a trace of nostalgia. She refused decisively, ” I can’t go back. I won’t love you again, ever since you ran away from the wedding yesterday, ever since you pulled me away, ever since we didn’t have a child, we can never start over again. I will never love you again. &Quot;

Then, she took a deep breath and turned her head away from him. &Quot; alright, I’ve said what I wanted to say. Please leave. I don’t want to see you for the time being. I’ll pack up the clothes I left in your house as soon as possible. &Quot;

“Lin Li.” Chengxiang called out to her, shaking his head, not willing to accept everything she had said.

“Xiao Li, don’t be like this. Chengxiang knows he’s in the wrong. Give him another chance.” Cheng Zheng’s mother went up to speak up for her son.

Holding back her tears, Lin Li didn’t look at her and only said, ” “Dad, let them out. I don’t want to see them.”

Hearing this, father Lin nodded, then turned to Chengxiang and the Cheng couple and said,”Please leave. Don’t disturb my daughter’s rest.”

&Quot; in-law daddy, you ran ran. &Quot; mother Cheng wanted to salvage the situation but was interrupted by father Lin.

&Quot; don’t call me that. My daughter didn’t marry your son. If you want to find a wife, go find someone else. Our family can’t match up to her, and we don’t care for her! &Quot; Father Lin said as he and mother Lin pushed them out.

Lin Li turned her back to the door and bit her lip. Her whole body trembled uncontrollably from crying.

Anran looked at her, stepped forward, half-squatted in front of her, and held her hand tightly. At this moment, she didn’t need to say or do anything. Perhaps it was enough to just stay by her side like this.