Chapter 142: Every Step Of The Way
She didn't know how to feel about it since she should've been happy that I accepted the truth so easily and understood that she was a married woman who wasn't open to any other relationships like I was looking for.
But in reality, it was the exact opposite of relief, as she looked so uneasy and restless at the moment with how gloomy her eyes looked. And looked sick to the stomach, almost as if someone she had put all her expectations on ran away without a care in the world about her because he was scared of the challenges that came his way if she were to be with her.
She knew that this was the ideal situation for her and what was morally right, but she couldn't help but feel sad that I left her the second I saw that she was old and washed up.
And she felt slightly betrayed that I left her the moment things turned for the worst, which made her give a wry smile on her face as if she had finally accepted that there will be no one in this life of hers that will be by her side and love her for who she was no matter the circumstances.
And that she should just give up all hope and accept her life for what it was, and pray that she'll have a better one in her next life.
She honestly looked so disturbed and downtrodden that she didn't even want to look at me anymore, and she looked like she wanted to lock herself in her room and cry herself to sleep.
But she was too proud to do that and didn't want to show any weakness in front of the boy who played with her feelings and cast her aside, so she simply gave a straight smile that had bitterness hidden deep inside of it and said,
"Oh, I didn't expect you to react so casually...I thought for sure that you would be shocked and surprised when you find out my true age and the fact that I have a family of my own."
She was doing her best to hide her feelings by half-closing her eyes and having a polite smile on her voice. But it was obvious that she was hurting deep inside, seeing as how her voice was shaking as she spoke and how tightly she was holding the hems of her clothes, like she was going to tear through them any second.
Seeing Camila like this honestly made my heart drop to the bottom and made me want to slam my head against the wall until I could feel my brain splatter against the wall for saying such a vague phrase that could easily be taken in the wrong way, like how Camila was taking it right now.
But it was absolutely necessary that I said that misleading line to her as if I really didn't care about her anymore now that I knew her actual past, so that I could make her realise just where she held me in her heart and just how important my promise to take her away from her dreary life and pull her into mine was, since I was sure that she wouldn't be able to come to a proper decision or at least a certain direction that led to a good ending if I simply left her like this.
But now that I've done my job of making her understand just how important I was to her when I was just a boy who had just moved into town recently and someone she had just met this morning, I should quickly make her understand that it was all a misunderstanding from the start so that she didn't get any further depressed since seeing her like this really felt like I was being slowly stabbed in the heart, which I rightfully deserve and much more for playing with her emotions like this.
To do that, I casually said, while acting as if I were completely unaware of how broken she was right now,
"Oh, don't get me wrong. I was definitely surprised when I found out your real age and marital status...I was so surprised that I think I even peed my pants a little."
I looked down at my pants as if I were checking to see if there were any stains on them, which made Camila giggle as if she thought that even though I was the horrible boy who played with her heart, she had to admit that she still enjoyed my presence in her life, since I always managed to make her laugh and smile with whatever goofy shenanigans I did that no one else in her life did before.
Droop~
But her face sunk once again when she realised that her relationship with me wouldn't be the same again after what had just happened, and made her feel worse than she already was.
And just as she was about to tear up after being unable to hold back her emotions anymore, no matter how she tried to do so, her face froze and her mind was thrown for a whirl when she heard what I had to say next.
"...But even though I was surprised, I already knew that my feelings for you wouldn't change no matter how old you were or how many children you already had with your husband...And that I would love you for who you are, no matter the circumstances."
"And even though I might be a little bit shocked at your true identity and past, it still doesn't change how I feel about you, as from the moment I saw your beautiful face..." I said as I caressed her cheeks that was a bright cherry red right now from my sudden proclamation that made her forget every negative thought she had a moment ago.
And replaced it with an overwhelming warmth and tenderness that had taken over her body and love-struck eyes that were gazing at me with desire and passion, like I was the love of her life, who she had been searching for her whole life and wanted to devote the rest of her life to.
"...I decided that I would shoulder the burdens that you carry in your life and walk with you every step of the way, no matter how treacherous the journey gets."
"...Heck, why should I even let you walk?!"
I exclaimed like I realised how stupid I sounded, and all of a sudden, to Camila's surprise, I lifted her up from where she was sitting by scooping her up from the bottom and placed her right on my lap.
Scoop~ Hug~
And before she could even react to what was going on, I wrapped my hands around her waist, pulled her closer to me so that her ass was submerged into my lap, pushed the hair hanging on her back aside while she had a baffled expression on her face, and gave her a kiss right on the back of her neck, which instantly turned her skin's colour from a pale white to a light shade of pink when it felt my lips on it, and said as if it were a written law that must be followed at all costs,
"...My queen only deserves to be carried around like this wherever she goes and shouldn't ever lay her precious feet on the filthy ground."
"So understand this, my sweet little Camila..." I said as I pushed my face into her soft and fragrant back, which smelled of jasmines, which made her breath hasten and her heart rate speed up. "...when you are with me, I promise that I will never leave your side, no matter what happens in your life, no matter how atrocious it may be."
"And I swear on my honour that even if I knew that your final destination is at the end of the world where all hope is lost, I would carry you all the way to the end and make sure that not even a single speck of dirt touches your feet until we finally perish together at the end with smiles on our faces, reminiscing about the wonderful life we lived together..."