Chapter 57
The night before Yu Sui was scheduled to leave the country, his former FS teammates gave him a make-up birthday party.
At that birthday party, Shi Luo lost at Truth or Dare, and when he was penalized, he kissed Yu Sui by accident.
Chen Huo said at the time that it must have been Yu Suis first kiss. All the while, Shi Luo half-believed and half-disbelieved it.
Shi Luos eyes trembled slightly. Then, that was really your... your first kiss?
If it werent? If I really had any kind of love history, A trace of helplessness flashed across Yu Suis eyes, it would have long been dug out by someone.
Shi Luo thought about it and had to agree.
Before his debut, Yu Sui would have been too young to consider dating. After his debut, if he had really been seeing anyone...With Yu Suis fanatical girlfriend fans, this kind of thing would have been absolutely impossible to hide.
Therefore, that truth or dare penalty had been Yu Suis first kiss.
Shi Luo thought back on that scene from two years ago and clutched his bleached hair, his throat constricted.
That was Yu Suis first kiss.
What a pity.
At the time, Chen Huo had been egging him on so Shi Luo couldnt remember how it felt when he kissed Yu Sui.
Shi Luo raised his eyes to look at Yu Sui. His ears turned slightly warm.
Whether he remembered it or not, this guys first kiss was his.
Yu Suis first kiss was his, not someone elses.
Shi Luo was struck with another bout of possessiveness. He couldnt help questioning closely in a quiet voice, Later...when you went to Germany, during the past two years...
Did you date anyone?
Those people in Europe, though he didnt understand nor has he ever had any contact with them, they cant all be blind.
There were bound to be lots of people who were interested in Yu Sui.
For two whole years, even if he hadnt dated anyone, there might have been someone who used some trick like his own Truth or Dare to get their hands on this person.
Shi Luo wanted to say something but stopped. It wasnt easy an easy thing to ask.
What right did he have to ask anyway?
Shi Luo turned slightly to the side. He took a cigarette from his trousers pocket and held it in his mouth without lighting it. He avoided Yu Suis gaze and stopped speaking.
Yu Sui watched Shi Luos movements and expressions. He had more or less guessed what this little whelp wanted to ask. He said directly, No, I never dated nor have I had any bodily contact with anyone. For two years...
Yu Sui couldnt help but smile, Ive kept myself as pure as jade, original packaging unopened, how I was before I left is exactly how I am now.
Yu Sui was clearly talking about himself but Shi Luo felt like he was being seduced. His ears turned red immediately, and he stammered, cigarette between his lips, I-I di-didnt ask you about that!
Sorry. Yu Sui smiled, leaning back slightly, I thought you were having another attack of your straight-guy disease. Anyway, Ive already owned up. From start to end, theres been no one.
Shi Luo gulped. For some reason, he felt even more nervous than before now that Yu Suis said this.
Yu Sui quietly waited for Shi Luo. He then pulled the topic back, So? Youve already taken the benefit of my first kiss. What else?
What else do you want?
Yu Sui waited for Shi Luo to say something.
Shi Luo raised his eyes to look at Yu Sui, his heart beating faster and faster, his lips unconsciously trembling slightly.
The answer was ready to come out.
What Yu Sui was to Shi Luo was a complicated matter.
He was his benefactor and his personal enemy; an elder brother and his captain; the model and goal for his profession and his most longed for teammate. His multiple identities barred Shi Luos way in front, and emotional barriers caused by his particular childhood experiences blocked his way behind.
Shi Luo had suffered extreme hardships during his short nineteen years of life. The only thing he hadnt tasted was the taste of being loved. Hed been on a tortuous mountain and hadnt realized it until now.
The range upon range of mountains in his heart were all broken up in an instant. The only thing that remained in Shi Luos heart was Yu Sui.
Cigarette between his lips, Shi Luo lowered his head, trying his best to contain himself and not lose control.
In the past few years, Shi Luo has become better and better at controlling his emotions. As long as he is given a little time, Shi Luo would be able to sort out his feelings. He wanted to tell Yu Sui everything.
But Yu Sui refused to give Shi Luo any time.
Yu Sui noticed that Shi Luos body was trembling slightly, and he subconsciously called out, Luo Luo...
As soon as Yu Sui said those two words, Shi Luos eyes reddened.
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The second half of what Yu Sui meant to say tell it to me straight. was choked back.
Shi Luo had reached the end of his forbearance. He wiped his face and said hoarsely, F*ck it.
Shi Luo gritted his teeth, he didnt want to lose control but he just couldnt anymore.
He couldnt bear Yu Sui calling him that way.
Shi Luo took the cigarette from his mouth. He didnt want to delay for a second longer. I like...eh.
Yu Sui covered Shi Luos mouth with his hand.
Yu Sui looked straight into Shi Luos eyes and said with all seriousness, I like you.
Shi Luos heart suddenly ached.
Everyone said Whisper was a slag man. Only Shi Luo knew that no one could be gentler than Yu Sui.
Yu Sui released the hand covering Shi Luos mouth and whispered, Do you like me?
Shi Luo lowered his head. His throat was choked with emotions, trying his best not to let his tears fall.
Shi Luos voice was hoarse, Yeah.
I do.
I like you.
Beyond the glass wall, their teammates were still there. They really had no way to do anything that would cross the line. Yu Sui took Shi Luos hand and squeezed it lightly.
Yu Sui looked down at Shi Luos hand and let out a breath, ...Finally.
Shi Luos nose twitched. He still hadnt been able to restrain the myriad feelings in his heart when he suddenly sensed something.
It doesnt make much sense to ponder about this at the moment but Shi Luos thoughts turned a bit uneasy.
What did he mean by finally?
For him, it was only a few minutes ago that he was able to fully understand that he liked Yu Sui, but what about Yu Sui?
Shi Luo suddenly didnt dare to dwell on it.
If possible, Shi Luo hoped that Yu Sui was like himself, only realizing his feelings just now.
But this was obviously not the case for Yu Sui.
Then, just when did he become interested?
A week ago?
Half a month ago?
A month ago?
Or could it be...
Shi Luo raised his eyes to look at Yu Sui, the pain in his heart intensifying.
This was definitely not the time to be hung up on such details, but Shi Luo just couldnt help it.
Along with finding out Yu Suis feelings, the many doubts in Shi Luos heart suddenly came out. Shi Luo didnt want to think about the details, but his heart ached more and more.
Shi Luo looked at Yu Sui with red-rimmed eyes and with trembling lips, asked, When did you...when did you like me?
Yu Sui obviously didnt expect Shi Luo to suddenly ask this.
Yu Sui laughed in spite of himself. Luo Luo, this mood between us... shouldnt we talk about this?
Shi Luo stared at Yu Sui and asked, When?
Shi Luo stubbornly said, When? Youre not me. You grew up normally, and youve had normal relationships with people. You must know better than I do about liking or disliking someone.
If you became interested in someone, you would know it. So when did you become interested?
Yu Sui smiled. He wanted to keep his mouth shut and just kiss Shi Luo. Shi Luo stepped back a bit, his tone changed a little, When?!
Yu Sui was quiet for a moment. He smiled.
Say it! Fearing that hed attract their other teammates attention, Shi Luo tried his best to suppress his voice, Tell me, when did you become interested?
Shi Luo was trembling from head to foot. Yu Sui, you...youve always been so good to me, you...
If I was really good to you. Yu Sui paused and chuckled, Then that would really make a slag man now.
Shi Luo interrupted Yu Sui anxiously. Say it!!!
Yu Sui was dazed.
After a while, Yu Sui simply said, In that club, when we had that alcohol bet.
Yu Sui avoided Shi Luos gaze. He looked down at Shi Luos hand, and said in an easy tone, You should understand. That scene, no one couldve remain unmoved.
Yu Sui couldnt even face him as he said this. Shi Luo could no longer bear it. He gritted his teeth and said, Tell, me, the, truth.
Yu Sui took a deep breath.
It was too difficult to try and fool Shi Luo.
Since getting to know Shi Luo, in two years, Yu Sui has only been able to successfully conceal one thing from Shi Luo.
And now, it seemed that he wouldnt be able to hold it back anymore.
Shi Luo was now serious. Yu Sui knew that he couldnt hide it anymore.
Yu Sui looked at Shi Luo and tried to speak as calmly as possible, Back when you were still doing live broadcasts.
Shi Luos eyes trembled, and tears hed been holding back for so long finally came falling down.
When he was still a wild anchor, Yu Sui was already interested.
Looking back at all the countless encounters they had during the past two years, all of them, all of them, no longer looked the same.
That year, Yu Sui was nineteen years old.
In the house dance channel of a certain live broadcasting platform, Yu Sui, whose identity had been exposed by Shi Luo, said, Luo, come to FS. Ill take you with me.
After Shi Luo played his first regular season match and won the match MVP, Yu Sui evaded the others and whispered to Shi Luo that hed take him to celebrate alone. Then he drove the whole night and to take Shi Luo back to his hometown.
At Shi Luos hometown, outside the college entrance examination venue, Yu Sui leisurely opened a live broadcast while waiting for Shi Luo, and told everyone about the boy he secretly had in his heart.
At the FS base, after learning that Shi Luo had signed a five-year contract in a moment of impulse, Yu Suis expression had been conflicted. He wanted to say something but stopped.
Yu Sui asked Shi Luo what Shi Luo thought of him. Once he heard Shi Luos answer, Yu Sui fell silent.
On the eve of Yu Suis departure, Shi Luo and Yu Sui threw out harsh words. Shi Luo had told him that if Yu Sui didnt take Shi Luo with him, he would never ever, ever look for him again.
After killing the new medic more than thirty times in a row, Yu Sui found out that that medic named Evils previous ID had been Luo.
...
The past flashed vividly in Shi Luos mind. Shi Luos tears burst out as though from a breached dike. He couldnt control it anymore.
During every moment of the past, Yu Sui had liked him.
All these memories were suddenly covered with knives. Shi Luo couldnt imagine how Yu Sui had come wading all this way.
You......
Shi Luos tears meandered. How could you...
Shi Luo held Yu Suis hand tightly. He was violently choked with sobs, unable to complete a sentence.
At first, I couldnt tell you. I was worried you still didnt like me. Yu Sui raised his hand and stroked Shi Luos head. Voice hoarse, he said, Then later, I couldnt tell you...because I was worried that you already liked me.
What I just said is true. In twenty-one years, youre the only one Ive ever liked.
At that time, I was young and inexperienced. Wherever I release you, I was worried Id hurt you.
But despite how careful I tried to be, I still hurt you.