Chapter 30 This Is A New Life!
As we got closer and I could see the girls waiting for me, I thanked Tag and Sig for coming along and that I would need their help tomorrow. I was happy to see the girls, but I also had some questions that I wanted to ask Messia.
"It's good to see that you made it back fine; how was your trip to visit the Snake Folk?" Messia asked as we all set down.
I let go of Talli, and both her and Pixie ran over to Leah, and Riza was close behind. She must still be hungry like I was, but I was also feeling a bit weird.
"We never ended up going. Let's go back to the hut and sit down, I am still pretty hungry, and we have a lot I want to talk to you about. I also have a bunch of questions that I hope you can answer and get cleared up," I said, trying to keep myself level, but I was getting antsy thinking about Miasma and telling Messia about her.
"Yes, of course, but are you okay? You seem like something is bothering you?" Messia asked, coming closer to me, but I stepped back, and she gave me a look.
I took a deep breath; this wasn't hard, it was just words, and I would feel better if I knew the answer, regardless of the outcome. I took a moment to collect myself, so I wouldn't be misunderstood like I had been with Sig.
"When you feed me, and the few times that I have kissed you, what do you feel? Do you care for me more than just as my provider, or do you just care about me deeply and want to make me happy? Whatever you choose, I am perfectly fine with it, but I feel like I might be reading into your affection more literally than you intend it to be," I said, and then I went quiet, looking down.
I wasn't ashamed or embarrassed, but I wanted to give her time to come up with her own answer and not have my stare bearing down on her. I stood shifting my weight, but then Messia stepped up to me, putting a hand to my chin, lifting my face to hers.
"I can't help you have babies; I am a girl like you. I still like when you kiss me, but I am worried that you want more than what I can give you," Messia said while stroking my cheek, and I pushed my face into her hand.
"I don't need to have children, or we will figure out something with one of our evolutions or something. I just want to know that you want to stay by my side for more than my food and comfort," I told her as I looked into her eyes.
"I do enjoy kissing you, but I will have to take care of the girls most of the time, and there are times that you will be apart from me. If you do not plan on having children, then enjoy yourself; you can try that kissing thing with the girls when they complete their transformation. This is a new life! Honey, dew, you really want to be locked down with me right now? Come," Messia told me, taking me by the hand but not pulling me.
I walked beside her in silence, going over my thoughts. She was right, and I would be silly not to explore the different things that the world had to offer.
The idea ran through my head, and my mood picked up, and I squeezed her hand. I turned my head to her and smiled, but I still wanted to ask a final time.
This just seemed to be going far to smooth, and one final confirmation of things wouldn't hurt anyone.
"So, just so we are clear, you are fine with me bringing more girls around that I like? And I can talk to you about them, and it won't be awkward?" I asked, holding my breath, but Messia just smiled warmly and laughed.
"Yes, that is fine; I have to tell you, it's refreshing to know that you want to share these things with me. Before this Queen, the other Queens were always so single-minded and only believed that they knew the right way. Most of the workers don't respect her, but they need her to create more workers," Messia explained as we neared Miku and Xani's hut.
"I do not want to do this alone. I want all the help I can get, and I need people like you and Riza to talk to. I met some people that need my help, and I want to, but I need more people. I might have found a way to keep an eye on the Weasels, but they have a problem. Then the people causing them a problem have their own problem of getting rid of a deadly waste," I explained as Messia pulled the grass door curtain aside for me, and I stepped in with the other girls.
My honey-dipped Ferrets looked peaceful, cuddled together; their layer of honey was starting to get thinner, and it wouldn't belong. Pixie and the others were eating what looked to be a sticky honeycomb wafer of some kind.
That must be the BeeBread that Messia had mentioned before. I wondered what it tasted like, but I knew there was no chance of me getting any of that yet.
I heard Messia come in behind me, and I turned to her smiling face and opened my mouth. Messia leaned into me, and the rush of jelly was everything, and I was able to slurp the sweet nectar into me until I could take no more.
I kissed Messia a few more times and then took her by the hands and pulled her to the cushions. Riza must have already been fed by Leah, and she had crawled into her honey bed and looked to be fast asleep already.
I was a bit tired, but I was excited to tell Leah and Messia about all that had happened today.